“Civilization,” someone wrote, ” is but a thin veneer covering a savage, inner self.” And how true that is, I discovered, just a while ago.
The occasion was rather embarrassing. I was in a public washroom, and the cubicle, as usual, had the coat hook ripped off. What people do with all those toilet cubicle coat hooks they’ve been collecting, I do not know. Anyway, there was no hook, so I threw my jacket and calendar, full of all kinds of important notes tucked inside, over the wall between my cubicle and the cubicle next door. The obvious happened, of course; someone decided to use that cubicle and when he slammed the door closed it knocked my calendar off the top of the wall, scattering my notes all over his cubicle floor.
I dived down to pick up what I could reach, yelling “thanks a lot!” – but not a word of apology from next door. Not a word at all, in fact, he was absolutely silent. A hand then appeared under the cubicle wall with the notes I couldn’t reach. Still not a word spoken. I was fuming and still a bit flushed (pardon the pun) for some time afterwards.
I thought later how funny the situation was. It wasn’t something to get angry about, but how angry I’d become, and so quickly, too. What a shock: my Christianity was but “a thin veneer covering a savage, inner self” too!
But surely a good Christian has perfect control of his emotions at all times, doesn’t he? Not so, 1 John 1:8, because ”If we claim we’re free of sin, we’re only fooling ourselves, and the truth is not in us.” A Christian isn’t Mr. Perfection. In fact, the “truth isn’t in us” if we think we are. What “truth” are we talking about, though? The truth of verse 7, that “the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from every sin.” The truth is, I can’t purify myself or make myself perfect. To think I can is to cancel out the Christian message, that it’s Christ who makes us perfect, not us. And while he’s still growing us up toward that perfection we also have the marvellous assurance in verse 9, that if we do fail, and even fail miserably (as I did in that toilet cubicle) ”if we admit our sins, he’s faithful and just and will forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing.”
So this is me: I’m not perfect, I get angry still, I admit it, I’m sorry.
And this is Christ: He knows, he forgives, he accepts and he’ll keep on doing my perfecting for me, 2 Corinthians 3:18.
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